There was a little girl who loved to dance, she was told  she was one of the best in the group, that she could make the front row for an upcoming dance show on TV but that she was a little too big and fat and need to loose weight. This little girl registered only the first part, the part that made her light up and didn’t realize she needed to actually loose the weight. 

The special day had arrived. She had dressed up as an Egyptian for the theme of the dance with her team. She wore blush and lip gloss, tied her hair back in a bun and felt so excited! Her mom asked her to pose. excitedly, this little girl started making Egyptian poses. She got right into character. She noticed those around her looking and she felt deep inside that it was because she looked as beautiful as she saw herself in the mirror. She was so ready!

Little did she know, her world would come crashing down when she was reprimanded the day of the show about her not loosing the weight like the had asked her too. She felt like she messed everything up.

She didn’t understand how she looked fat when she didn’t see it. How being labeled affected her gifts and passion. It wasn’t fair and she definitely didn’t deserve it.
 
This little girl continued to dance but looked at herself differently now. At age 9, she believed what that person said. Luckily, didn’t become anorexic or bulimic.. but she did develop a heartbreaking relationship with food and a low self image. She now believed that how you looked mattered more than skill and passion. Her value an 9 years old was undermined and belittled because of her appearance. Nothing was the same after that. 

At 13 years old, she took the word “bonita” (pretty) and though they called her “Gordita” (fat). It was engrained in her mind. She went home and cried like she never did before that day.

That little girl was ME

My mother took me to the doctor and put me on the Atkins Diet which consisted of not eating carbs. I did loose the weight and people started to notice and compliment me. They asked me what I was doing, I got all this praise but then I started to eat compulsively because I craved so bad what I couldn’t have (especially carbs and sugars).  That plus the pressures of image and how women should look according the society in Venezuela, didn’t help with my relationship with food. 

Want to know how I bettered my compulsive eating?

I discovered on my journey of bettering my relationship with food, that the way to break free is to read and educate myself to help me though these rough times. That’s what made the difference for me.

I needed to heal from within. 

I sought  information that helped me with the mindset I needed to have to make these long lasting changes, not just quick fixes or temporary bursts of motivation.

This is so common with women and I hear it all the time, they too went through something similar. It has become my purpose to help other women heal their childhood wounds and better their relationship to food.  That’s why I’ve put all the information I’ve learned into a line of eBooks that are meant to help you get closer to that best version of yourself.

You can access them here.

I still go to therapy, I have had relapses… it is a day to day thing. But I’m certainly doing much better than a few years ago.

I am no therapist but if you find yourself in a similar situation, we can connect just chat about it… I know not everyone understand the power a food obsession or an eating disorder can have over us.

Love you!

Coach Yeli.